akamarshmallows

2006-06-24T21:08:00.000-07:00

I HAVE CHANGED MY BLOG URL SO KINDLY

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2006-06-01T14:23:00.000-07:00

hellos. my mood is down. yes my holidays are ruined. the adoption eggs are back too. sighh. it'll probably put more colours on my blog and yes cheer the readers up or something.. my schedule is so tight. im going to break down sooner or later..

there. the eggs are up. hope they hatch soon.

2006-05-22T15:11:00.000-07:00

i hate my class. i hate msot of the people in it. i really do HATE them!! why must they treat me like this?! why must they treat us like the background-the air surrounding. they dont put our presence into consideration!! when they're angry, they just like to scream at us when we make a little but of noise. but when THEY'RE happy and THEY scream and shout. they dont even care about their noise level. they just continue laughing and screaming. and when we ask them to quiet down a little they continue to screama nd shout! THEY DONT CARE ABOUT US!!! i hate you all!! i hate you all to the darn CORE!!

yes! i know someone doesnt like me JUST BECAUSE I DIDNT DRAW?! HEY DRAWING IS MY FREEDOM! I DRAW ANYTIME I WANT. ARE YOU ANGRY CAUSE I DIDNT LISTEN TO YOU!? OR ARE YOU ANGRY THAT I DIDNT FEEL LIKE DRAWING! SELFISH PIECE OF CRAP! WHAT IS THE USE ANYWAYS?! WHAT IF I DID DRAW SOMETHING. WOULD THAT HELP?! WOULD THAT HELP IN THE CHANGE OF ATTITUDE IN BOTH THE REST OF THE CLASS TOWARDS US AND YOUR BEHAVIOUR AND WAY OF THINKING?!?! IT'LL ONLY HARM YOU AND MAKE YOU THINK THAT YOU'RE SUPERIOR AND THAT EVERYBODY WOULD LISTEN TO YOU! IM HELPING YOU HERE AND YOURE SAYING ITS MY FAULT FOR NOT LISTENING TO YOU!?!?

YOU PEOPLE ARE ALL JUDGEMENTAL!! DOESNT MEAN THAT I DIDNT WANT TO DRAW OR AS YOU THINK I DIDNT LISTEN TO YOU, THEN I WOULDNT LISTEN TO ANYONE! AND THAT IM IRRITATING OR WHATEVER. THAT IM A SPOILTSPORT!? WHAT HAS BEING A SPOILTSPORT GOT TO DO IN THIS SITUATION!? YOU JUST WANT THINGS TO GO YOUR WAY! YOURE THE TRULY SELFISH ONE HERE! NOT ME!

does it even matter whether i cry. does it even matter that im not there. does it even matter that i dont exist!? i think IT DOESNT MATTER AT ALL!! nobody cares! even when one of my friends was absent that time. nobody noticed her presence and they just marked her present. WHAT KIND OF ATTITUDE IS THAT!? YOU DONT CARE ABOUT YOUR OWN CLASSMATES. YOU ALL DONT. THATS WHY I HATE YOU ALL SO SO SO SO SO!!!! MUCH!! I HATE YOU ALL!! IM SO SORRY IF I EVER HURT YOUR FEELINGS IN THIS POST. BUT FROM WHERE I VIEW IT, YOU PEOPLE ARE HURTING OUR FEELINGS MORE THAN WE HAVE EVER HURT YOURS!!!

2006-05-10T19:39:00.000-07:00

hellos! i must endure! endure. endure!! its one more day til exams officially end!! tmr's our chinese paper2. i guess im kind of nervous. they are adding in sentence structure and fill in the blanks! thats unfair~ other schools stick to the normal arrangement while we have to work our brains and try our best to remember how to write the words. ah im hungry. i havent eaten from 11am onwards. had sausage mcmuffin til now. lols oh wells dinner is soon to be here ^^

anyways i was kind of bored today. so i decided to draw and i managed to complete 3 piece although i loved 2 of them the most. i drew kyo<3<3! then followed by this girl on a broomstick which i suppose everyone would know her as a witch and the last is uotani tohru and hanajima. three of them together. ahhh! i guess its kind of nice?? [but not as nice as valerie's.] they dont look like them though =D but its ok. i'll post it up and show all of you.

oh yes im changing the blog address soon. so watch out for the relinking. =DD

2006-05-02T20:52:00.000-07:00

hellos. i think im having flu! yes yes. although it was worse a few minutes ago when i had blocked nose. urf! anyways. i recently found this song - namidaboshi from black cat. its so funny. it reminds me of the ending theme of black cat. the characters were so funny! hahas. must watch it! as well as the ending theme!

today i went for piano lessons alone~ so scary. at first i didnt dare to press the doorbell. cause some people were there. like i think they were the teacher's family members. like so scary! so i walked around the block and called roxanne but she was still in the washroom. so i decided to press the doorbell! damn scary! i stood at the door at first. then my hands were like "trembling" as they reached for the doorbell. then i clicked it!! lols. i actually clicked it!!

it was so terrifying! after that i entered the room. the teacher was listening to the radio then she said "i thought you gave up" to me! oh no i gave her the wrong impression! lols. i missed so many previous lessons. i feel bad about it. oh no! im missing next week's one too due to exams. and it unfortunately falls on a tuesday. and wednesday we had science sa! stupid. i had to study for it. she said she may be putting me to an earlier slot on tuesday =O so scary! but i hope not =D

anyways i should end here. piano was scary today without vanessa[she had fever]. the grade six girl was so professional! *sobs* i think shes younger than me or same age. omg! *cries* i better go and sleep now. got to take panadole later. ok i really should end here today. continue the next time round. listen to namidaboshi!

2006-04-28T21:06:00.000-07:00

as i am listening to this song i suddenly feel the love within our section. i cant believe im actually realising this only now and at this current moment. the truth is i love our section. i feel a sudden sadness and .. and .. something else that really brings turns my mood blue. i think this is the most colourful post i ever has. anyways i feel the love! even though there are various people showing off about their so called section love infront of me like almost all the time. which is probably just an act~ they're just lying to themselves. and lying to yourselves wont get you anywhere.

its just an act anyways. it'll end sooner or later. its only the matter of time. besides your so called bond is all an act as well~ so who cares. oh ya thats right. you took us as stepping stones. well i wish you best of luck of surviving throughout the rest of your life in your own world of lies. we tried to change and teach you. but you wont listen. so you'll only end up sobbing the crap out of yourselves. nothing to do with us. everything crumbles under your feet anyways. would you care for the presence of the stepping stones which enabled you to cross the river?

2006-04-23T12:07:00.000-07:00

sorry about not being able to update this for a very long time. i was kind of caught up in revising for the stupid exams. why have exams in the first place. not like anyone cares for the environment when we study geography. like anybody would put their heart to conserving our environment and saving our half destroyed Earth. Plus, like there is anywhere i Singapore to dig up for dinosaur bones. whats the use of all these anyways?? not like we want to become the emperor of china or look for those ancient egypt mummies or whatever.

whats the use for these subjects. i can understand for english chinese science and mathematics but the others?? what about literature. im so not going to become a poet nor am i going to write short stories of any theme using profound english. afterall my english is terrible. Whats the world coming to?!

anyways. i slept at 3+ am last night. that was the latest time ive ever gone to bed and the only time i dont feel tired at all. watched this weird show last night. something about some people being possessed by this "devil". oh wells i better get going now. goodbye.

love does not exist in this world anymore. does it? have you seen any love lately? have you displayed love lately? was it love or was it just a moment of highness that you act like you care for something or someone.

2006-04-13T17:59:00.000-07:00

hellos. we had ep today! and today's date was 13! how terrible. its my register number. and it just so happens that we had to impromtu speeches. is that how you say it? i think so. it is like someone gives you a subject and you think of it for a few minutes and then start your speech and talk for about 1 to 2 minutes, which i think i did for about 3minutes or so.

the theme given to me was about my family. well now! that, i have tonnes to say. but i somehow feel "naked" out of a sudden. i just told my entire class about my family. and the situation it is in now. i have broken my wall down! the wall that had been separating the class and me! oh no! im becoming more confident in voicing out my opinions! i cannot do that!! though im still so quiet in class and would only dare to speak aloud infront of crowds as it was neccesary due to the marks given for it.

sigh! being too confident and "daring" aint that good. i just dont find it that good. anyways. i guess i did pretty well for the speech. i hope people listened. sighh! i guess my theme was simple compared to the other themes given to my other classmates. actually being the least noticed aint that bad afterall. at least you dont have to worry about being sabotaged into things. =D

but its good to gain confidence. but i still trembled a little when i went up there. hahas. maybe it can help me excel in various activities! such as.... hahas anyways. thank you roxanne for lending me fruits basket =]] and continue guessin gthe show im watching. hahas i think i should end here. goodbye.

2006-04-08T06:59:00.000-07:00

hellos. how time flies. its like 3 years behind the stage practising and in only about 3 hours all the efforts that was put in. all the time we've spent in the band room practising like crap. and in a flash of the eye, its over. im not sure whether im relieved or something else. it seems like a dream. everything had passed so fast.

that was the first Fantasia Concert ive taken part in. it was also the first time ive been to Victoria Concert Hall. it looked so classical. also, the back stage seemed like a cabin. there were rooms for each section to put our instruments and stuff. so cool! our room was led by a flight of stairs into our own "little world". its like damn cute looking. so small and really seem like a cabin on a cruise or something.

i got so nervous ladt night. though it was only at first when i stepped onto the stage infront of 800++ people. and yes i heard my name being shouted a few times. hahas thanks people! anyways. after a while i just used to it. whenever i stood up, i would look at the extreme end of the seats all the way back at the door. so i wouldnt see any familiar faces. lols. it was scary. it got ok after that.

i guess we played pretty well last night. the ensembles were nice. no! i should say we played freaking good last night. hahas! i got 2 stalks of flowers =D. how sweet of them. thank you!

and we had our 2.4km run today. was so freaking tired especially when i reached home at 11pm++. feel so sleepy now. oh wells, not like i reached home the latest or anything.i think my timing was quite bad! like so slow. damn it arghs *sobs* sighh! i need to do well for my 5 items man!

i got to go now. i need to go prepare. i'll continue another time.

2006-04-05T20:47:00.000-07:00

hellos. ok im back in my average mood. had band today. its like the last rehearsal in school. the next one we're having is on the concert day itself at victoria concert hall. its like 2 days away. how fast. i feel as if i have "contributed" to the selling of tickets. hahas. i sold a total of 14 tickets actually. which i suppose is quite little. =DD

had my first piano lesson on tuesday. well, it wasnt really counted as a lesson. the teacher only wanted to see how much we know about the piano and our theory. i dont say that my rhythm theory is good cause i know im damn bad at it. vanessa gave us "free performance" cause she played twinkle twinkle little star on the piano. while i didnt know a single song! lols. my theory wasnt that good anyways. so im actually quite nothing. i saw the pieces in grade 2 like already the sort of rhythms im playing now.

anyways. im just looking forward for the start of the lesson. we havent officially started yet. its on every tuesday! lols =DD

2006-04-01T18:33:00.000-08:00

what crap. you want MY opinions!? i'll give you opinions! bias! mental blocked. and i hope you see this! people who act tough outside are the WEAKEST inside. there isnt such thing as a student who cannot be taught BUT a teacher who CANNOT TEACH!

and i dont care whether you idiots are challanging me but this is mighty frustrating! and its completely adding fuel to the fire burning within me LONG LONG TIME AGO! what crap. what crap. what crap! i had been tolerating my class matter my family matter and now THIS!? i just realised that im actually a very tolerant already. and its at my limits. i had been suffering like this for ALL MY LIFE!! it all starts with my family then school work then teachers and now this.. this THIS! ARGHS!!! i hate this... im getting tired.. i really dont wish to go around in circles anymore. i wanted to stop depressing myself. but IT DOESNT SEEM LIKE YOU IDIOTS ALLOW ME TO! i hate everything that surrounds me except for various things! i cant help by going into depression! ARGHHHHHSSS.. what good is there to life. when everything that surrounds you already SUCK THIS MUCH!

2006-03-31T22:21:00.000-08:00

oh my GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *SCREAMS* I cant stop thinking about it! omg!!! omg!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ im going crazy!!! the show's so NICEEE.. AHHHHHHHH omgomgomgomgomgomgom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHH im becoming so obsessed over it! im going to go crazy for it for maybe like a few weeks or so. i finally understand how roxanne feels when she goes crazy over two characters! whoooos!!! i want them TOGETHER! and i mean TOGETHER!!!! WAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

noo *sob sob* they're only taking each other as FRIENDS!! he doesnt want to reveal his identity. HOW CAN HE DO SUCH A THING!? noooooooooooo~ i want a PART TWO!! PART TWO!!!!!! wows. i can actually get crazy over shows i just started watching so easily cmopared to those which i had been watching for like weeks. and probably months. hahas. i want them together T-T noooooooooooooooooooooooo~ nooooooooooo~ noooo~ nooo .. but it seems like there is going to be a part two. awww can he finally reveal about himself by then? i want to see that!

2006-03-30T09:46:00.000-08:00

hellos. ok fine. enough with crap talks. i suppose its time for me to get back to reality. that im still alive. that i still need to continue working hard to live on. sighh. though its tiring at times. sickening at times. irritating at times. and "spare-tyred" times. we still have to live on. live on in our thoughts. our dreams. our goals. sheesh!

sometimes. i feel as if im a dog. oh gee. anyways i watched the "zhao an ni hao" on channel 8 this morning about 9.30am++ haha! i couldnt believe it. i saw andrea~ lols. and 2 seniors! lols and i think i had seen more than these few. but i cant remember already. anyways i should just end here. i'll be going to the toa payoh stadium for sports day later on at 1.30pm to 5pm. so boring! sigh. nevermind. i'll entertain myself through.... through.... nevermind. i dont look forward to this event. lols =D byes

2006-03-29T19:45:00.000-08:00

sighh. do you think im thinking right? i cant differenciate now. sometimes its just nuetral. then there are times when its frustrating and irriting and also times when im just.. enjoying... myself... my life... is it correct? is it wrong to feel? is it wrong to scream myself out... for once in my entire life.....

ive never screamed for a long.. long... longg.... time. all bottled up in me. and has never opened til.... now. is it wrong to express myself at times? am i just putting a mask over my face? does what i say, my every word, have a deeper meaning within? everything im saying? my every appearance. or am i just.... just.... just.... ..... ...... ......... playing around? is it so very wrong? to occassionally let out some flames? before my candle completely burns out. dying in the flames that had been keeping it burning... burning... its... not... wrong... isnt it?

2006-03-27T20:33:00.000-08:00

im not going to start with hello today! i am freaking pissed!! we got WRONGLY accused by the BLOODY teacher!!! for NOT doing RESEARCH! WHAT SORT OF CRAP IS THAT!? YOU WANT PROVE. I HAVE 2 PAGES FULL OF RESEARCH. YOU THINK WE'RE THAT SMART TO KNOW SO MUCH ON MOULD!? YOU THINK THE STUPID PRIMARY TAUGHT THIS TO US!? I HOPE SOME FREAKING TEACHERS WOULD SEE THIS! I AM VERY FRUSTRATED AND PISSED! NOT LIKE ITS OUR FAULT FOR NOT HAVING PEOPLE LISTEN TO US PRESENT.

YOU THINK SOMEONE WOULD WANT TO LISTEN TO SOMEONE THEY'RE NOT CLOSED TO SAY SOMETHING!? YOU THINK OUR CLASS IS THAT UNITED!? ITS MY SHIT!

ARROUSE MY SHIT INTEREST! YOU THINK YOU TALK VERY NICE ARHS!? LIKE I THINK MORE PEOPLE WOULD WANT TO LISTEN TO US THAN TO LISTEN TO YOUR BLOODY NAGGING!

I AM VERY VERY VERY FREAKING PISSED! its COMMON sense that someone would ONLY listen to another say something WHEN THEY ARE CLOSED TO EACH OTHER OR KNOW EACH OTHER VERY WELL.

such as a friend would OF COURSE want to listen to their other friend in another group present so as to see the work the friend had done in her other group.

SO YOU'RE SAYING THAT IT'S OUR FAULT FOR NOT HAVING FRIENDS!? IS IT OUR FAULT TO BE THE LEAST NOTICED IN THE CLASS!? IS IT OUR FAULT FOR NOT HAVING A CHANCE TO SPEAK UP FOR OURSELVES AND MISERABLY LET THEM PUSH US AROUND!? IS IT OUR FAULT THAT NOBODY CARES ABOUT US!? IS IT OUR FAULT THAT WE ARE TREATED LIKE PIECES OF PEBBLES-KICKED AND TOSSED!? IS IT OUR FAULT TO BE BORN IN THIS WORLD!?!? YOU THINK I WANT TO SUFFER LIKE THIS!? DO YOU KNOW HOW TOUGH IT IS TO BEAR THROUGH ALL THESE FOR 7FULL YEARS!?

HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF I KICKED YOU AROUND FOR 7 FULL YEARS! FOR ALL YOUR LIFE. BEING TOYED AROUND! BEING IGNORED! BEING SPARE TYRES! YOU THINKS ITS NOT TIRING!? YOU THINK ITS NOT IRRITATING!? YOU THINK I LIKE THIS WORLD AT ALL?! YOU KNOW WHAT?! I HATE MY LIFE AND I HATE THE WHOLE OF THIS WORLD! I HATE THE PEOPLE. I HATE THE FATE. I HATE EVERY SINGLE SHIT IN LIFE! I DONT WANT TO LIVE ANYMROE!!!

2006-03-23T19:05:00.000-08:00

hellos. special thanks to roxanne who has good taste in shows! lols =D oh man!! the song you've sent me so niceee!!! "Silhouette of a breeze" waaaaa!!! rock rocks! hahas. its so classical. cant wait to do the piano and violin duet for this!! if we can ever the scores on this. and me ever managing to learn violin. we'll all rock together! hahas. zhixin's piano, vanessa's piano. waa everything also piano. lols i shall "stand out" with the violin. hahas so crapping. i dont think i'll ever master it. WAAA!!! he's having a love rival!! whoooraaahhhh!! roxanne. this show rocks.

oh wows! i didnt realise that its already 7.01pm! oh my.. how time flies when you're having fun. watching the show that is =DD i shall end here for today. byebyes.

2006-03-21T21:23:00.000-08:00

hellos. i feel very bloggy now a days. maybe its cause ive got a lot to say. and maybe after the period of talking. i'll once again become very quiet. cannot cannot cannot! today, world down sundrome day was launched in our school. we performed for the people there for only a few minutes atcually. we exposed... oops! lalala~

anyways___ cannot cannot! i still very scared. what the crap is wrong with me?! im growing more and more afraid of you!! ahhhhhhhh!!! this cannot be happening!

im feeling so very thirsty today. i guess the event held in our school today was kind of interesting. though we were just staring at the sec1s during their junior band practise and wow. ok i shall not say.

i guess it was fun today. we had our dinner in school too. and for once our section was so 'united' oops. no offence or anything. but just ya. anyways the trip back home interesting. actually we were like waiting at the side of the road for our parents. discovered a lot of things on various people hahas. my p5 camp friend! cant believe it!! whooos. hahas

anyways. i think i should end here. i felt rather average today. my senior asked me whether i want to take triple science next year. i think its pretty tough for an average person for me! sighh. perhaps? and also i find there are so many crappish teachers around. so bias! its NOT our fault sometimes. BUT they BLAME US for EVERYTHING. like hello!!! not like adults NEVER make mistakes! teachers just feel TOO EMBARRASSED admitting that they are wrong and they THINK its OUR fault!! ITS COMPLETELY NONSENSE! and SOME teachers like certain students more and give them the advantage and give them more attention. IS COMPLETELY UNFAIR. so crap!!! i HATE some of them. URRFS!!

but really. i think i should end here. i'll continue another time. urghss!!

2006-03-20T22:34:00.001-08:00

hellos! i suddenly felt like talking about this and i shall. hahas anyways __

even stones can crumble under one's foot if not treated with care. and i think some people should wake up from their long years of sleep. before it really does crumble and you might just fall so very badly. you can never take anything for granted even for small pebbles which might be of no use to you cause you never know when they'll break apart when there are finally too many cracks and too late for healing. everything little thing matters because that little bit of thing was used to piece the world together.

if you dont treasure what you have and when it finally breaks down, it would have been too late to glue it back.

never did change. all the chances that had flown by. never did grab on to it. couldnt bother to mould and shape to perfection. took for granted. never wanted to change.

i have only one thing in my mind. _____

every grain of sand on the beach has its importance. every drop of water in the sea has its importance. every air particle in the air has its importance.

2006-03-18T19:42:00.000-08:00

hellos. im finally back from band camp. it was alright. i guess just that i got totally abandoned by both my friends and my section. so sad! still. i stayed strong with my other outcast friends. hahas anyways. this is the first time im staying over at the new campus. i thought the camp was kind of fun.

we had pretty much of combined practises and the room was definately cold especially when we're like wearing pe shorts. we watched "hunchback of notre dame" on the first night. then "phantom of the opera" on the second but we only watched halfway through cause of the lack of time i suppose. we had to wake up pretty early the next morning.

anyways. this is the only bad point and im going to make it loud and clear! at least i hope people would try to change this fact that we're ignored! and miserably, we're like kind of like the only 3 sec2s. sighhh oh man.

anyways theres really nothing much to talk about the camp. its just roughly about practises and the rehearsal for the down sydrome day performance thats all. so i think i should end here. good bye!

2006-03-16T09:43:00.000-08:00

hellos. i'll be going on band camp from todays onwards til saturday evening. sighh how stressing. i read the schedule this morning and its like 9 hours of practise. 5hours in the afternoon and 4hours after evening. sigh! you wont be seeing me from 16 march all the way to 18 march. how depressing! and i think im going to fail my auditions. and thanks a lot for putting salt into the wound. sheesh some people just dont know how to console but craves to be consoled. sheesh! what crappish attitude!

anyways i think i should go now. byes! i'll be leaving my home sweet home at 12noon. hahas lalala~ i should try and look forward to later on. sighh! bye.

2006-03-08T20:36:00.000-08:00

hellos. i cant take this anymore! its so stressful having to bare with this piece of crap! whats with the attitude? urghs! anyways. mid years are coming closer and so are the june holidays. though im looking forward to the holidays but before that. sigh! we'll have to pass through the exams. im so sick of that! arghss! i hate my life. i hate my life. i hate my life. anyways. we have this audition thing for band. sigh ok im scared! im terrified! urghs! im frustrated!!! i cant take this anymore! i feel as if ive fallen apart. maybe i have. oh gees.

2006-03-03T18:05:00.000-08:00

hellos. im here with the eggs again =]] my previously hatched egg critters were adorable! i wonder what would come out of these eggs. hmms i'll need to wait anothr month. how long~ i shall end off here now since i had this really long previous post =DD byes.

2006-03-02T18:20:00.000-08:00

*warning - this is a long... post and i do mean long. but do read it ^^ its interesting. im just apologising for this extremely long post. its 10 times longer than my longest post. hahas sorry*

hellos! wows. my muscles are like kind of aching. hahas all because of yesterday's general leadership program. it was kind of fun actually! hahas. we went for a hike from MacRitchie and walked all the way to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve. how tiring was that! our instructor told us that we'll be travelling on foot for 30++ km!! wows! thats like a LOT more than 2.4km run!! so much more. hahas

we were so energetic at first when we were at macritchie and when we walked around the erms.. well it asnt really a lake but somehow like one? hahas. and we were screaming and shouting cause we were so excited for the rest of this trip!

Then we proceeded to this really shady path through the erms.. small 'forest' and the path was so rocky that i had to glue my eyes to the ground at all times. man was that hard for my neck. hahas. We had to go up hill and down slope so many times that it was starting to get tiring.

And we walked walked walked walked walked, through the golf course and across some running water on a log.. the sun was blazing hot and we were perspiring like crazy. it felt as if i had just bathed with my clothes on. After refilling our water bottles at the ranger station which was way before the first half of the trip and we were all dead tired and wet. hahas. We took a picture of the rainbow in the toilet and proceeded to the tree top walk. how fun!

The tree top walk was seriously fun! Vanessa kept shaking the bridge. hahas and i kept staring below my feet and imagining me falling all the way down with no bungee rope or whatever so. how scary can they get. was so fun! all the trees were beneath my feet! wows! and of course, time passes by when you're having fun. hahas after clearing that exciting checkpoint, we continued walking up hills and down slopes just to receive this apple which was supposed to be our passport to the next checkpoint.

Probably just to boost our energy with that apple and it was also the completion of our first half of the trip. man im tired! i still have it now didnt eat it. my hands were freaking dirty. and we walked to the main road where there was partial civilization-cars and some buildings. lols and we walked in the piercing rays of the afternoon sun as its heat reflected from the solid cement beneath our feet. We could hardly open our eyes to see as it was so glaring.

It was shit tiring. and the 12 of us divided into 3 clusters-the lead, middle people and last few. so freaking tired and so roxanne zhixin and i started to sing songs to 'cheer' us up and it actually made us forget that we're actually climbing uphill. We didnt realise anything until our instructor asked us to slow down. that was when i turned around and realised that the others were like a few metres away from us. hahas

At last, we're going back into nature again. e climbed through the fences and finally! We've reached Bukit Timah Nature Reserve! well nto exactly. only at the edge of its property. hahas then we walked through rocky paths and under the hot sun going up hills and down slopes and my toes were aching shit then. I felt so sleepy, all my energy was used to climb up and down.

We walked walked walked and walked again. and we finally reached this shady area. when we thought we were ending, out pops a thousand flights of steps! ohGOSH! was i tired! up and up and up. my legs are so tired! my feet can barely walk anymore. Then reached this resting area with benches and we jumped on them. the instructor let us rest for awhile and then continued on the climbing of steps sheesh!

I i thought i couldnt make it anymore when i found out there was a few more hundred flights of steps!!! MAN! i was shit tired then!!

OK! lets skip all the walking and some singing of our p5 camp songs and all the way to the finale!YES! we's reached the ending point and had walked down this really steep slope that my toes were freaking aching at the end of everything. We could finally having our lunch! We were happily sitting down on the benches. The abigail took out her loacker snack for us, then suddenly this mad mnokey jumped out of the tree and jumped onto the packet of loacker. man it was greedy. it took 3 at first then it saw us staring at him. He took more and stuffed it in his mouth. hahas so funny.

We were screaming mad because abigail had went to the washroom. that monkey was still there! and our instructor went to get our lunch. we couldnt help but scream! hahas! Then it even wanted to take abigail's bag. then weiting siying took their bottles and 'attacked' the monkey. they swung their bottles and the monkey ran away. AHAHS! Then it wanted to come back. hahas but we shooed it away XD SO FUNNY! we've seen a number of monkeys actually.

ok here comes our lunch and we proceeded pass the playground where 2/4 group A clapped and cheered for us and to the sight seeing spot. There was this really nice scenery of this 'mountain'. so cool ^^ our lunch was filling and our instructor had to leave for his exam. some examination. shouldnt he be studying for it? hahas. anyways we were dead tired then. roxanne and me just stood at the side and stared at them play at the playground. hahas and on the way back. we actually counted about 17 monkeys lying lazily under the sun. hahas.

what an exciting trip! i'll definately recommend it to the seconary twos of the coming year! come to think of it now. all those times when we were complaining during the trip. its actually kind of fun! it was superb! hahas. i better end off now. byebyes~

2006-02-22T18:46:00.000-08:00

hellos. ah yes finally i feel like blogging a little. WELL! now i feel completely stressed out and my blood is boiling! sheesh cant understand why must there be such a behaviour?! whats with the whole world! ARGHS!! sometimes i just feel like screaming my lungs out! BUT my stupid neighbour would probably complain to the security guards. omg thats like so stupid and pathetic! nevermind... cause i know thats the way it is in my neighbour's world of her own~ ok i shall end here. i dont wish to make myself explode over such child-like frustration. hahas kidding about the child-like thing. byes!

2006-02-05T19:47:00.000-08:00

yes. its eggs again =]]

sighh. ok im not going to start with hellos today. im so tired and so crapped up. i feel completely shitness. oh no.. i havent finished memorising the national anthem yet. sighh. its like 6 days of school for me. with exactly the same study hours. waaa.. i just finished my art. CAs are coming too. then it comes mid years. sighhh i can endless breath in sighing, because i think i sigh very often. and i already have some white hair. man i cant help sighing and thinking of the negative -- negative self talk like what im doing now as i blog-- oh well, i should just end here now. sigh --there i go again-- byebyes

2006-01-29T12:46:00.000-08:00

hellos! Its Chinese New Year!! so here's wishing everyone out there an enjoyable and Happy Chinese New Year!! its the year of the dog! woof woof woof woofies!!

think most of you are going out to bai4 nian2. ohs wells! shall not hang around here too long. i better get going too. hope to see you all back in school again. and have a prosperous year ahead~ byebyes!

2006-01-26T19:21:00.000-08:00

hellos. had been thinking of jc and poly. i think ive made a decision to go jc ^^ though i heard that its stressful and stuff but i do hope i can catch up and manage there =]] since most of the people i know in my family went into poly, even my cousin's considering to go there. Hence ive set a goal for myself. hope i can sustain this goal =]] then i'll be the not-sure-how-many person to study in a jc among the younger people of this generation =]]!! hahas.

cause ive been bullied by these people when i was young. so now i want to prove to them that im not someone you can just push over!! im going to prove you all WRONG! hahas.

mrs wong[maths teacher] shared with us today about being an actuarist or actualist. She told us that they earn about $25 000 a month or something. Like so good!! but i'll never be able to make it there. its impossible! SO! ive just set my target to jc first and i'll see what i develope into hahas =]] maybe i'll stick to drawing or something =]]

i shall end here now. byebyes and here wishing people out there a very Happy Chinese New Year!!

2006-01-22T16:17:00.000-08:00

hellos. i feel so tired. i cant help closing my eyes. during lessons and blablabla. so boring and so tiring. im sick of my life sheesh!! feeling so lonely now. everything in my life's slowing down. sighh~ oh ya. happy birthday roxanne! i think i might be giving you your present a little bit later or if i can rush it in time i'll give them to you tmr ^^

yayyes! for once we're going to play the naitonal anthem and school song tomorrow for the school. as sec1 recruits 05, im just.. just sheesh im feeling just fine for tomorrow theres not much of the excitement and whatever. i need to wake up early tomorrow morning. hope i can manage. at least i know im not as obsessed as someone i know. hahas

i'll end here then. byes!

2006-01-19T17:49:00.000-08:00

hellos. sheesh im still waiting for the eggs to hatch. doing my d&t now. i cant seem to think of anything to improve on!! everything around me seems alright. man im so tired. have to get pressies soon. and i hope vanessa's satisfied with her drawings and she would finally stop asking me to draw for her more things.

today was boring i guess. all sorts of double periods. at least tmr's friday and yes! finally can rest... or not, saturday got band have to wake up early again. its as if im going for a 6th day of school *sigh* had the auditions on tuesday[17/1] wonder how many people are in my section. heard that there were only about 40++ people who signed up for band. i hope none of them decides to leave in the end like what many sec2 06 did. sheesh i mean.. it aint that bad..

crap ive forgotten to do something!! oh well, i'll end here then =]] byes.

2006-01-14T20:44:00.000-08:00

heys! you all must go watch this clip!! its so touching. i just felt bored today and hence i went into all those websites in my favourites list and i remembered this. its like everytime i watch this i would be like damn touched. i guess. no matter how many times i watch also like this de wors. hahas so you all go watch watch now.

2006-01-13T18:16:00.000-08:00

hellos. ive just changed my skin! is it nice? i find it simple and plain. anyways my previous skin kind of like "collapsed" hahas. cant see the picture. oh wells i feel its time for some change =]] was in mood for a dark and rainy picture and hence i chose this ^^ sighh. i need to work hard for this year lers. its the streaming year. pretty stressful with all the pressure placed on your back by the teachers and your parents. AHH! i forgot to watch bleach!! crap. i shall go watch now. byes!

2006-01-10T12:47:00.000-08:00

hellos again.. oh wows! these eggs are do adorable. make me feel like "adopting" one every month. hahas i'll have to wait til the next month for these to hatch. its raining again. has been raining these few days. like throughout the whole day. it feels so cozy at home ^^ aww. anyways lalala~ i shall end off here. bye

2006-01-06T15:45:00.000-08:00

hellos. im just here to say hellos and watch as these eggies hatch into... though i have no idea what they'll hatch into =]]

2006-01-03T11:17:00.000-08:00

hellos. so long never update my blog lers. i seem to be falling out of this now. theres really nothing much to talk about and i feel weird posting such a short post. it seems kind of pointless since theres nothing but hellos and byes. and yup. oh ya i havent wished you people an officianl happy new year. well Happy New Year! haii.. im losing out on the happy new year feeling. had new year count down at my grandfather's house the last sunday. i guess it was fun. hahas din really join in the fun and stuff. played with glow sticks and stuff.

oh gees. i think i shall end here now. byebye~ and enjoy school-ing again.. =]] though im not really putting a smile. feel so sad hahas. byes.

2005-12-23T10:49:00.000-08:00

hellos. well i think im just going to make a quick and short post. emmm. i havent been doing anything special now a days so i dont really have anything to post about. christmas is coming so wanted to wish all of you a very MERRY CHRISTMAS and a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!

hahas. i may not be posting for the next few days unless ive got something to psot about =]] anyways. i guess this is it. school's reopening and im trying to cover the dont-want-school feeling with a little consolation of the new school. gees dont think im any excited for that now. just dont get how some people love school so much. hehes ok i shall end here now. byees~

2005-12-17T14:28:00.000-08:00

hellos. sighh. look how fast the year's passing. its like aww man. i just cant get the fact that im going to be a sec2 next year and the streaming into sec3. sighh. time passes by so fast. how i wish.. oh nevermind nobody would ever answer to my prayers nor wishes and dreams.

*looks up in the sky with teary eyes* i feel a sense of.. of sadness. gees i dont really feel so weirdly. i feel stressed and depressed even before school reopens. oh i think i'll probably die of stress when it does open. anyways. always look on the bright side. we're moving back to our old school. sighh. i dont seem to miss the temporary school we're using now, they kind of.. well. i shall just say i dislike them =]]

oh wells. christmas's coming and new year's followed up. going to my grandfather's house on christmas plus going there for the new year count down as well. *shows a weak smile* oh wells. i better get going now. and ya thats it. bye.

2005-12-13T12:44:00.000-08:00

hellos. sighh. how fast another year is passing by. it was like yesterday when i first got my psle results and entered secondary school. i kind of miss being a sec1 when everyone cares for you cause you're the youngest and know the least. haha well kind of =] christmas is around the corner. hope santa claus would pass by here and read my wishlist. here's a small list of things i hope to get =]]

[[wishlist]]
1. new handphone.
2. new bags.
3. good progress in school all year round.
4. new skirts.
5. feel less stressed.
6. mp3/ipod.
7. nice outcome of my house after the renovation.
8. be less looked down by freaks in class & school.
9. may all my wishes come true.
10. lead a good life.

well guess thats it for today. byees~

2005-12-09T09:16:00.000-08:00

on 5th december.

woke up early in the morning 5am+ got ready and headed for school. was feeling so tired. left the school in the coach. my roomie and i were separated. but still i found someone to sit with anyways. my outcast friend =)) we're both the left out ones in the section. noboyd really cares and notices about us. =]] they got their own cliques. sighh. anyways first day checked instruments. we arrived at about 2++ in genting. when we first got out of coach was like "wow. so cooling up here" haha. then chcked into our rooms and unpacked stuff. cant really remmeber what happened. cause it was 4 days ago =P haha. ermm. had fallen halfly asleep on the bus a few times. but i got woken up. sighh. haha oh wells cant remmeber what happened liao. bye for "today".

on 6th December

woke up in the morning like 7.15am to bathe, our meeting time was 8.30am for breakfast =]] like damn cold!! there was this fan inside the toilet and ABOVE where you bathe. though its not really strong but its still cold! i was chivering throughout the whole process >.< then came out. still kind of shivering hehe. then we had some sort of workshop after breakfast. our lesson was conducted by mr. mitsu nonami. if i din remember the name wrongly. hes a funny guy haha. hes from japan! so cool =P anyways. she played the trumpet as an example. i find his lessons really true! i mean he explains the stuff out. and it was like kind of true. and he thought us the way the way of breathing. mr.tan our conductor was there too. his class was funny. haha anyways.

after that i think we had a rehearsal on the stage. that was the first time we practised since we arrived there. we were kind of testing out how long we would take on the stage ba? we were given some time though. then the next band followed up. and the piece singapura suite II was played by another school as well! eek. need to work hard =PP hehe.

on 7th December

woke early int he morning 6.55am this time to do my usual routine. meeting time was moved to 8am this time. today's the competition day!! when we went downstairs to gather for breakfast. saw many students in their band uniforms. so cool, all with their shiny instruments. my friend then told me about mr.B erhem. we were trying to guess who he was though. took us for like ages to do that. anyways. it was finally time for our performance to the judges! well close to that. we immediately changed, gathered downstairs again and went to the lower level to warm up and stuff. so excited!! ok. skip a whole lot of the waiting. OK it was the big minute now! walked onto stage like "professions". then we started our performance. so cool! the sec1 recruits' first performance was a competition!! so fortunate. haha

i guess we played rather well then. i think i squeeked or something T-T sob sob. well anyways. we finished and we went off stage. and i know that the suspending symbols or something was damn loud! like so nicee =X ok and then. we went outside and we were all like "oh no! think we'll get silver" "eek think i sueeked" "did we do well just now?" all sorts of questions popped in out heads. haha. at least i got over the competition now =]] after watching some other bands perform then later at night we had a friendship concert. that was when we did night before christmas and santa songs with bendemeer secondary school. conbined. then followed by our hunchback which we're doing alone. it was fun. the conbining part XD. then there were other bands as well oh ok. then the results were announced. we got third among the three schools! we had a tough night and that requires a good sleep! but on the closing ceremony day we need to perform again. i felt so tired out of a sudden then.

on 8th December

finally! a day of fun!! today we get to go to the outdoor and indoor theme park. first we took the spinning teacups thingy. got kind of dizzy then alicia roxanne and me took another time. we went with flute section seniors. me and andrea. the seniors, andrea&melissa wanted to take the rollercoaster thingy. forgot whats it called. so we waited and waited. then after that we went tot ake the sit on the chair and you go spinning ride. was so fun! so windy as well ^^ haha. better shorten my sentences. post getting longer haha. then as we went to the mine train. but it wasnt "opened" yet. then walked all the way to the go-kart. while alicia roxanne andrea and me went to the cafeteria to have some snacks. and then i went to buy something. when i came back rosemarie was sitting there. then we sat for a awhile. then we went looking for the other seniors. they seem to have "disappeared" we went up and down to find them. then we called them in the end.

they told us they'd went for mine train and flying dragon T-T sob sob. we din even get to ride those. i wanted to go to the 4d motion master. but then they din know how long was one ride and that we were meeting the others at 2pm in the buffet place we always eat breakfast lunch and dinner. sighh. so disappointed, haha. then we had to go back and change into our uniforms for the performance for the closing ceremony. and good nights for everyone. day was cut short too due to the performance. and after the performance right. we had this free time so everyone was like madly taking photos! we took some section photos. and some separated photos. so funny. oh i feel so mean and guilty. i shall not continue incase i start tearing about what ive done *wipes tears away* anyways. had so much fun. we still took the euro express after 11pm. haha our free time =P damn fun

on 9th December

going home day. woke up at 5.45am this time. cause meeting time was 7am T-T so tired. did my daily routine again. even more shivering today. gathered downstairs for dinner. friend kept saying shes sad over someone. then boarded the bus and headed back to singapore. i kind of miss genting now. all the fun. din get to ride those thrilling ones. sighh. oh wells. theres always another time. i guess. goodbyee~ reaches home at about 4pm plus.

2005-12-09T08:25:00.000-08:00

hellos people! came back from genting this evening. about 4 plus just now. i guess i had fun. the trip bakc was bumpy! and i mean it haha. anyways. overalls results for the band competition was GREAT! i mean. its so amazing the first performance i had was a competition!! overseas! haha. we even got gold with distinction!! so proud of our people ^^ im sure you all want to know about what has happened there. oh wells continue in the next post. hang on~

dont say bye yet. im not done =PP haha

2005-12-04T12:45:00.000-08:00

hellos. im think im excited! i'll be going to Genting early in the morning tomorrow! I'll be travelling with my school though. i meant school concert band people. so cool. haha i'll miss everyone here in singapore. anyways would be away for 5 days from tomorrow which is the 5th december to the 9th december =]] plus my house's kind of being under renovation now. so maybe by the time i return from genting i think there'll be this huge make over at home sweet home.

i cant really imagine or picture what my house would turn out like at the end of the renovation. oh wells im still excited to see the outcome. I have nothing much to talk about now. so maybe i'll just post about what happened in genting when i come back. =DD my cousin went to china for the previous two weeks and now when he returns i go for a week. haha how cute. ok i shall end here now.byee~

[picture: some random nonsense ive come up with]

2005-12-01T05:43:00.000-08:00

hellos! ive been tagged for the second time n_n its kind of fun to list down my random facts. haha. im just going to continue the chain =]] first! here are the rules!

Firs!t write 5 random stuff about yourself. Second! pick 5 other people who are going to continue this "chain" game n_n then leave their names at the end of this post. Lastly! go to their tagboards and leave them a message saying that they are "TAGGED" or something so that they know they are one of the few 5 who are going to continue this! =]] here i go with my random facts~ hehe =]]

1>> i am short sighted & sometimes wear specs! i think not many people realises that so just making this known to everyone! haha =PP
2>> my birthday's on the 3rd nov! remember that ya? hehe =DD
3>> i dont find blackcats unlucky at all! =]]
4>> i enjoy drawing but not colouring.
5>> i go for a weekly gathering at my grandfather's house on sundays where all my aunts and uncles are there =D aint that sweet? n_n hehe.

the 5 people i pick are >>>>>> alicia roxanne js(you better do it this time!! haha) valerie zhixin !! even if yall are doing this for the 2nd time =]] pleaseee? =DD

2005-11-28T22:47:00.000-08:00

hellos. what a nice beautiful monday morning. oh dear. my phone's looking all old and scratched up now. haha. went for the bendemeer music exchange on saturday. and since somebody asked about it. why not post something about it. well anyways.

had the music exchange on saturday. we went to their school early in the morning at 9am and we waited til im not sure what time. we were just sitting there blankly staring at the birds and chatting. stuff like that. and we were wearing our "heels" while the bendemeer people could just wear their shoes. waaaa. ok skip a lot of that part now. then after a long wait we proceeded to the bomb shelter! haha. was so cute that they had their band room inside of a bomb shelter and it was big spacious. could fit two bands inside hehe.

we stood outside in the tunnel leading to the doors of the shelter for awhile before moving on inside. and i was like "waa. so big" haha. [i find this post kind of dry haha.] then we sat down. the positioning of the firsts seconds and thirds were different. and on my right was a girl and left a guy. i din ask for their names nor say hello to them when mr.tan askes us to. and i found out that their instructor like so strict. so scary. when he asked a question everyone was like "yes sir!" and sounded very solid and firm!! so scaryy. it seems more of the ij people surround the bendemeer rather than bendemeer alternate between us. haha. there were more ij clairnets than bendemeer.

however when we played each of our competition pieces. thye seem to sound nicer. or was it that our thimpany[not sure of the spelling] player for singapura suite two wasnt here that made us sound so empty. or was it a change of environment. from a small bandroom that could fit us in with a little squeezing to it to a spacious one that could fit two bands in and still leaving a lot of space. oh wells. we better start getting used to these changes cause im sure genting's about the same. [wow. long post!]

when we were combined playing the two christmas pieces. i felt so oh my goshh! i scared i get a wrong note and rhythm and i did -__- felt so pressurised sitting beside them. they seem so professional!! waaa. and i realised the guy i sat beside was the only guy in the clarinet section. so poorthing ah? haha. oh my what a long post. think i should end here. jst to say i think i had fun at the bendemeer exchange. too bad we din play hunchback i seem to like it. haha! byee~

2005-11-25T10:39:00.000-08:00

hellos. i feel so excited!! we're going Genting soon for a competition for band =]]] !! im going to out today to buy me some long pants. i dont seem to have enough pants plus jeans are so uncomfortable. we'll be going to bendemeer secondary school tmr for a music exchange. its like we play our competition pieces for them and they play that for us. i guess its something like that. and we're going to do a combined music piece. and they're going to alternate us between bendemeer students. eeek! i wonder if i can catch up with them. they sound so professional. haha. i dont wish to have any wrong ntoes or rhythm tomorrow. eeek!

sighh. i feel kind of sad at the same time. this year's sec3s are going step down next year due to the year end final exam. waaa! plus another batch of sec1s would be coming in next year. eeek. i think the next batch people are kind of. nevermind. and also i wont be able to talk to my sneior *sniff sniff* she'd probably be too busy caring for the next year's sec1s and they need to tutor them as well. sighh i'll be suffering from the same fate next time when im sec3. sighh. haha.

i think i shall end here for today. i'll just go hide in my room and sob myself out. oh wells. we can also keep in contact cant we? i regret not giving the flowers to the last year's sec4s. sighh. haha. i kind of miss them again =X ok wells. byee!

[picture: samuraiGirl#2 coloured version. colour of hair and eyes were picked by my friend. haha]

2005-11-21T12:11:00.000-08:00

hellos. hmm. i seem to have nothing to blog about today. just that my stupid eye is so itchy eeek! dont want to have goldfish eyes tomorrow. eeks think something got into my eye! sob sob. anyways, holidays for the primary school has started. sighh. seems like we would be seeing more of them outside. and also, just realised that the scary sneior tagged my blog. you want to know whether you're still scary? well i suppose so. im nto very sure myself cause i havent seen you for quite some time so.. maybe when i see you again, i may end up hiding somewhere. hehe.

i really have nothing to talk about today? just that i went for my grandfather's birthday at his house yesterday. this is surely unusual for me to not have a subject to blog about on a beautiful monday morning. hehe =]] guess i should end off here then. byee~

[picture: samuraiGirl#2. got the butterfly symbol thing obsession from bleach hehe smiles =)) ]

2005-11-15T07:08:00.000-08:00

hellos. ok! let me just round up the things ive done today =]] first thing today was band! haha. we did chorale and jubiloso and a run through for hunchback. I guess today's practise was fun cause ive got the knowledge of the piece we were working in detail with today. haha =X mr.tan also cancelled all those really hard and fast parts in hunchback for the genting competition =]]!! yayyes. i mean booo! anyways, ive learnt to ALWAYS carry a pencil in your file =]] remind me to pack one =P then after that i was happily settling down at home then zhixin called and asked me to go to roxanne's house. haha ok so i begged my mum and went. we watched bleach there. was interested! yoruichi vs soi fong. haha. thats the latest episode so far =]] ok then i guess that's all there is to say. byee~

[picture: coloured version of samuraiGirl. just love the hair =P i coloured two pictures yesterday =)) i think im going to do more of it soon haha =D.]

2005-11-10T15:29:00.000-08:00

hellos! today i went for section lunch. its like some sort of "small gathering" for our clarinet section i guess =)) so funny. i was the youngest of all, even though i wasnt the only junior/recruit but the rest are all sec2s & one sec3 =P

Technically in level, my seniors(ann-marie[band recruit like me =D], laycheng, dora, cherie[correct spelling?], danielle[correct spelling?] & teresa.) went to pastamania near novena. emm. I guess we had fun hehe! There was laughter & stuff. & i saw sheena! anyways, i just realised ann-mari was so funny!! She reminds me of myself at times when she jokes in her way XD hehe =)) my poor senior & i made rather little "speeches" i guess we had no idea of what the sec2s were talking AND thinking about. haha! what "that guy's hot" & "that guy looks so ugly". *whispers: whats going on in their heads =O twisted thoughts =P*

ok i think i end here for now. bye~

[picture: horrid! colourPersonalities-Red.]

2005-11-09T11:46:00.000-08:00

hellos. ok, i just realised that people are not bothered to do what i request them to do. sighh. they're all just hopeless i guess. anyways, i dont know what to say now. I seem so out of subject now adays. yayye! i managed to stop saying the pathetic word "dots". That's good news for me =)) it sounds terrible anyways. Oh.. i suddenly become so mad over songs like these.. i dont think i should reveal what im listening to as im typing this post down =DD part of lyrics: "life is so unnerving~ for a servant who's not serving~ his not whole without a soul to wait upon~ ahh.. those good old days when we were useless~ suddenly those good old days were gone~ ten years we've been rusting~ needing so much more than dusting~ needing exercise and a chance to use our skills~ most days we just lay arond the castle~ flabby fat & lazy, you walked in and oops-a-daisy~!! *music turns happy*" hehe =))

[picture: samuraiGirl.dark&mysterious.Suddenly thought of it and had the inspiration to draw yesterday.]

2005-11-06T12:53:00.000-08:00

oh...k, since i have been tagged and im suppose to pass this weird game thingy down? i know this is dumb but perhaps im just too bored, well not really =P i still have to practise for band (musicpiece: "Hunchback of Notre Dame"- some of its random soundtracks).

Rules of the game--

1) Post 5 random facts of yourself on your blog.

2) And then, pick and list out 5 unlucky people to do the same. Leave their names on your blog.

3) Go to their blogs and message them via the tag saying "You are tagged." and ask them to go to your blog for the rules of this weird game.

oh...k here i go~

`1- I dont like durians very much.

`2- I prefer drawing girls to boys cause a boy is too straight and shapeless =X no offence out there =P

`3- Im a Scorpio and proud of it.

`4- I enjoy daydreaming during examinations after ive finished the papers.

`5- I love TakoPachi!! you know the 3 TakoBalls for $2.20 thing? yup! thats it!! =))

ok~ all done for me =)) and i pickkk....
js , alicia , sheryl , justina & sheena!
to continue passing this thing on=)) Hope yall are as bored as me to do this weird thing =)) !!

enjoy~ byebye =DD

2005-11-04T22:23:00.000-08:00

hellos. wow! yesterday was my birthday ^^ the whole family went to my grandfather's house to celebrate. Including my aunts and uncles. It was also Hari Raya yesterday. I din know it was like such a big occasion? Like EVERYBODY came?! And i mean everybody, usually all my aunts wont come for something so small, i din have such a big gathering for my birthday last year =O i was like so shocked. I feel so eeeek standing infront of the birthday cake alone =P Though the day was fun, my cousin, his cousin and I went to Queenstown Shopping Centre before that. They played arcade the whole time and i just stood there and helped them carry and count the tickets they won. In the end i gain the most profit =PP!! ok i shall end here now.. bye~ Happy Birthday to meee~!! ^^

[picture: fyrrBloom.orangeCat.earthElement.]

2005-10-30T18:52:00.000-08:00

hellos. yayye! my birthday's coming soon. the actual day is on Thursday and im going to celebrate my friend's and my birthday. so cool! we're planning to out on tuesday during the time of the party. oh no! i got like sore throat worr.. T-T i sound like shit now. and a bad cough, hope tomorrow it would completely recover-refering to my voice?- sound so rough. ok i shall end here now. see ya like the next post. byebye~

[picture: closer to nature today. a punk girl with the butterfly for the first time.]

2005-10-27T17:31:00.000-07:00

hellos! today's the second last day of school this year. i suddenly feel a sense of happiness? and a little bit of going-to-miss-this-place. haha im not excactly like leaving school as if im like a sec4 but its just that we're going to move to the "new" school! its going to complete in december! yayye! still, they said we're going to move around to classes next time. I find that a little.. well.. i dont know, im not used to that i suppose. It seems weird.. anyways. i feel so tired.. well i guess thats all i got to write for today.. end here now bye!

[picture: emiSparkle.whiteCat.elementLight.]

2005-10-22T15:57:00.000-07:00

hellos. wow. i went for my "first" band practise as the main band and got to see the seniors after the exams. i suddenly feel so happy? well when i heard that we'd be staying til like 1.30pm? but still.. i guess its ok =D yayye! i managed to catch up with the music pieces we were playing. at least i din get lost in the counting. but some fingerings were wrong due to the many dots and strokes in the measures (which mean bars, you know bars? in the scores). My eyes are like getting worse in sight now T-T and i think many people outside my class dont know that i wear specs? but seldom even though my eyesight like damn bad =DD anyways. we all agree that SLs are scary at time =) i shall end here today ^^ byebye~

[picture: raynaWish. graycat. airElement. (its not the surname and name, the first name rayna is the actual name of the cat given in birth but since its a cat and it must have an owner, the second one wish is the name given by their chosen owners according to my story ^^)

2005-10-13T13:32:00.000-07:00

hellosss!!! YAYYE exams are finally over =DD i feel so excited there much to do before our results.. i dont think i want to see my geography results T-T anyways.. since i hvnt updated now adays.. i shall put something on.. ehhh.. hmm.. oh never mind not that i want to showoff or whatever T-T im gonna have a not-problem clarinet =) sighh.. now feel so stressed again.. oh my art >:( oh well.. shall end here bye~

2005-10-03T18:54:00.000-07:00

hellos. its been a long time since ive updated.. ok i have like this "request" from my cousin cousin.. ya its in the tag.. anyways : why not? =)) its one month before my birthday my birthday~ haha.. hope you like that horribly carved pencil by me and my mama~ =)) without further delay [which is pure crap] i shall introduce what crap ive done =D first.. we have the purple and orange and then green and lastly the blue.. happy staring people =PP nonsensical.. ok i shall end here now.. goodbyee~

2005-09-17T13:55:00.000-07:00

hellos. yayye.. got the band music der cd.. hmmm i still like track 3 the most? =PP i feel bored and yar.. exams are coming.. YAYE! when the exams over and then band will come back ^^ and then can continue to practise with the whole band worr.. those genting pieces rocks orhh.. =DD im veyr happy about the exams coming but not so happy about the studying i'll have to do before the exams.. hmm.. today i'll be going to my grandfather's ^^ we'll be sort of celebrating mid autumn festival.. yayye! and i think i'll still be going round playing with candles =DD

2005-09-11T14:03:00.000-07:00

hellos. yayye! got new scanner ^^ me just scanned a few pictures into the computer.. hand drawn ones =XX there you go!

im going to show only 5 cos the pictures are quite big and takes time to load so yarr..

the first one is some crazy stuff i drew in my notebook all the so called "elements" and then followed the flutegirl sheena and melissa are "crazy" about and the "we love flute girl, flutegirl loves me" so called fanclub motto.. haha and then the princess musician is also flutegirl (why? go read the fanfic >>chapter on the FluteGirl i wrote then you'll understand.) Finally, the elemental water i first drew it in my notebook but that one was horrible so i "magnified" it =)) enjoy people..

2005-09-02T13:23:00.000-07:00

hellos.. i had my home econs exams today and its the last day of school.. i suddenly feel so happy.. oh ya and yesterday was damn fun!! alicia, vanessa, zhixin and me went to escape theme park. We went to all the rides and that was before alicia came.. vanessa took the 360º revolution or something and she felt like puking.. =DD and alsoo.. after alicia came they all went to take wet and wild and like mad orh.. good thing that day the queue wasnt that bad and quite short and we took about 5 times in a row.. haha and i ended sitting at the back and getting myself ALL wet from head to toe and some more the set of clothes i wore that day seemed to be very absorbant of water.. aahh felt so cold when i went to take alpha8 or known as panasonic.. haha flipper was SO fun!! hehe.. i din go there for like more then half a year or something, suddenly all the scary rides did seem and feel very scary.. haha =DD oh YA we went into the haunted hosue 3 times and still came out from the front door!! got phoebia of it now!! eeek..!!

The first we were like so interested and we only had like FOUR people.. like so SCARY!! and then there was this really frustrated guy tending the haunted house and i was like damn scared!! haha.. at first the ghost gave three hard knocks on the door to show that we could go in which sounded VERY horrifying and then me and zhixin held our hands and vanessa and alicia at the back but then i peeped left and right and i saw this fake ghost behind the door and i screamed!! haha.. then the guy was like "you want to go in or not? dont want then come out" sounded so frustrated.. and then we went out.. then the 2nd time me and zhixin walke din front again.. and then from the curtains in front, the person popped and boo-ed us.. i was like "AH!" a short one.. haha and then we ran out again.. then long long later our 3rd time.. this time it was like eeee lorr..

me and zhixin were walking infront AGAIN.. actually alicia was too afraid to go in and so she pushed us in and she stood outside.. (so bad!!) haha.. and then when the lady closed the door (changed shift from that guy to this lady) it was COMPLETE darkness and i mean complete darkness.. you could only see the ultraviolet lights from behind the curtains.. then there was this fake ghost.. and we went in with this uncle and he wasnt afraid he even pointed at the ghost "you shut up!" when it was liike "RAH!" at us.. then i once again screamed.. haha and i was laughing! haha and then vanessa moved back and she like touched the fake ghost then there was this clip we were supposed to b watching on the tv on the wall and i knew that the ghost would POOM at you so i closed my eyes and three of us stacked on zhixin and stick to the wall near the door.. hah we din even dare to go through the curtains! haha.. then i was like saw this figure coming closer, though it was dark you still could see this white mask they were wearing not glow in the dark types.

Then zhixin was like trying to open the door and then the knob came off.. haha!! then she tried to fix it back but its like cannot so she threw it on the floor.. hahah!! then i knock on the door very hardly.. i kept my eyes closed and vanessa and me keep on stacking on zhixin's back. then is like.. the lady opened the door and she left it partially opened.. so i quickly pulled the door open and held it there for a few seconds the light shone in.. and i realised that there were TWO ghosts!!! like oh my GOSH!! one was holding onto a fake skull was so shocked by the mask they were wearing.. then i immediately ran out.. haha!! i think we cannot make it through the back door one.. hehe =DD

wow what a long post.. shall continue next time.. byebye

2005-08-25T21:08:00.000-07:00

hellos.. how long hvnt i been updating the blog eh? haha bene a little bit lazy to do so =PP yayye tests are over but here comes the exams.. which is so much stresser.. and also ive amde a few additional drawings =DD given them out to some people.. now very weird leh.. i have this character - flute girl.. and my friend is going crazy over it.. haha i gues sits alright isnt it? i mean you've got to see it for yourself.. and also ehh.. ah tall from 2/6 so long never come online! ahh.. or perhaps she always come late at night which i dont know =OO but just hope that you'd see this post which has you ah tall refered in it ^^ sheena also remember.. N.F.W.W.F.S.P.W.I.A.C.M. haha =DDDD remember horr.. graduate ler still must remmeber.. hahahaha! =PP =DD i shall end here byebye.. [picture caption: "Let's reach out for the skies~ with wings we sore up high~ the dreams we'll all acheive~ let's sore and reach for the sky~" taken from this year's 2005 singapora de theme song =)) hehe]

2005-08-20T12:40:00.000-07:00

hellos. Came back from band like a few hos ago maybe like 11++ ? oh yaa.. my internet is working again ^^ so happy.. and i want to go escape =(( so long never go ler.. i think the last time was like the beginning of this year or something? and also i havent bought my court shoes yet.. ahhh!! hmm.. thats all? im speechless today so yupyup.. ended. byebye

2005-08-18T21:25:00.000-07:00

hellos.. sighh tomorrow is geography ca.. i know towards the rest of the level like not very suprising or anything but i thought still must like study veyr hard or something? ahh.. so hard to remember the points ahhh!! Heelppp.. and also after tomorrow de ca at least theres a period of break then we can sighh study for our sa.. sighh so tired already.. i dont feel like doing all these anymore.. really very tired!! And i heard from roxanne that akito is a girl!? and he OR she had.. like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! Thats like SOOOO eeeeeeeeeee.. girl act as boy for like the whole of his OR her LIFE!! like haha? oh yaa.. that time in the comic she din seem as short as a girl =X im not insulting horr.. its better for girls to not be so extremely tall so yarr.. i'll end here for tday, need to help me friend post blog.. hehe bye~

2005-08-15T16:54:00.000-07:00

hellos. Came back at about 2++ and we just had our mother tongue test. It wasnt THAT bad.. but still, the front part was quite hard? I mean i so completely forgotten all about the words there is to write about.. and you know what?! The teacher gave us not detailed plans for the studying of our chinese. Its like the shou ce she gave the summaries and you know we would naturally know that we have to study the meaning so duh~ everybody turns to the inside and learn but who knows it was WRONG!! The numbers on the summary page and the one inside the contents were like completely different and i had to re study everything.. though studies some already and also i only had like 15mins to study them ALL!! oh goodness.. wonder would i do well in it.. eek im so excited i want SAs to pass by really FAST and i hope i do well in it.. sighh..

Wow.. im going to be like sec2 in like just a few months time.. thats fast? and a new batch of sec1s would come in and we current sec1s are no longer the youngest, and for sec2s they seem to always be those who are ignored? haha.. maybe a little too exaggerating on that.. but i do think im going to be so ignroed.. sighh.. wait til i get into sec3 that'll be worse.. sighh i'll end here wow.. this is a definately long piece of post.. hehe bye for now then..

2005-08-12T17:42:00.000-07:00

hellos. Just came back from watching charlie and chocolate factory.. ive never read the book before though.. It wasn't bad, just a little bit "wow-ed" about what the book actually is.. okk.. today we had our science ca.. it was quite alright and i think im going to get very low markss.. aaahhh!! i spelt so many things wrongly.. even ethanol!! ahhhhhhhh i spelled penicillin wronglyy and oh my goodness!!! Im like going to get damn low markss.. heeelpppp!! If only i could remember the exact spelling.. sighh no use worrying over it now.. its like over. ok then sighh.. i think i should end here now. bye!

2005-08-10T14:36:00.000-07:00

hellos. Did you see the fireowrks last night? It was sooo damn nice!! I like the last part at the Padand one.. Damn NICE!! and similar as alicia, saw double fireworks.. It so happens that from my hosue der window can see both Padang and Marina South fireowrks.. damn NICE!! my cousin actually paid attention to whether they set the fireworks at the exact same time.. haha It was like so fun and my hosue for once was like DAMN filled with excitement and happiness. =DD Grandparents came over as well.. then after that at about 8++pm me and my cousin went to my aunt's hosue downstairs on the 5th floor and we went to "visit" her lab mice.. they were like sooo cute!! was so stempted to pick one out and play with but did not dare to ask.. hehe.. i shall end here byebye~ oh yaa.. and happy belated birthday singapore!!! *Cheers and claps* haha. =DD

2005-08-08T13:05:00.000-07:00

Hellos. Came back from school. We had the National Day Mass this morning. Though it was quite boring but i thought it was "meaningful". haha =DD anyways, got new speakers ^^ yayyee.. can put aside the old soft one and bring out the black and loud one.. haha so nonsensical.. rokusan never go school. Are you sick? if you happen to read this. haha =DD Spirited away the show is damn nice!! i think i should end here right? =)) byebye

2005-08-06T13:35:00.000-07:00

Hellos. Came back from band like one hour ago and was like so motivated to play my clairnet. It's like so tempting to go play normal pieces which are freaking hard lor.. i think the standard of exellence the standard is like the very extremely standard de standard.. haha dont know whta i am talking about. It's just that when i see the normal pieces de music sheets, it's like there are so many more things we haven't learn yet. and i senior borrowed my rhythm book wor.. wonder why.. I haven't do until exercise 9.. seems so useless.. haha =DD i shall end here now. byebye

2005-08-05T15:40:00.000-07:00

Hellos.. It was sho funny on wednesday.. haha my mother fetched my friend home from after band horr.. then when she got off the car, there was like this DAMN long line of cars behind her lor.. it was like SO scary.. my mother say that students nevermind [ The later statement is i add in one, not said by my mother] cause.. MOE want us to study so hard then all the secondary schools no shuttle services or whatever.. then some people like us who have CCAs such as band when we have to carry big things home.. which are heavy and bulky!! Then still expect us to like go home ourselves and also squeeze that big thing on the bus AND some people even think it is INCONSIDERATE!! Lets see whose the one who is TRULY INCONSIDERATE!! HMRPP!! lolxx.. anyways yupp.. so thats the end.. fullstop. end of sentence and i shall also end here.. byebye =DD

2005-08-04T20:16:00.000-07:00

Hellos again.. I just finished practising for ym clarinet. and you know what? I think exercise 155 is easier than most of the confusing and weird soundning exercises.. Seriously it is! haha.. is like you should og try it.. If i happen to pick exercise 155 during the small little test, i think i'll do good in it =PP of course i dont want to get into main band so soon but i want to get into it!! waa.. so eager =XX anywayss.. Today is such a cooling day.. During pe i felt as if i was playing netball in an air-conditioned place.. the sky was like so dark and the wind wind was blowing so comforatbly on my face.. haha =DD anyways, i think i should end here byebye!!

2005-08-02T16:59:00.000-07:00

Helloss.. I just came back form school and i had like chinese oral & english oral on the same day.. haha our english oral is like a newspaper report. Is your speech thing, whether you speak good bad loud soft and so on yarr.. & our chinese de like sooo scary.. is like you read a passage like yarr like last time and then you are given a subject and you are suppose to talk about that subject. Today the subject for me was like not so simple lorr.. i mean have to reason a lot of things out and somemore is like we go do oral with two people from 1/6 a normal class.. & our tcher said it would propably be easier to do as they are normal. So yaa.. i suppose my reading was not that bad i mean i did mispronounce some words and also yaa.. did not read some.. The words were like all packed in my head then its like suddenly just totally forgotten everything.. haha i shall end here now.. [ Pic of Kyo from FruistBasket with cats!! waa.. kyo rocks!! Yuki is BLEAH!! ]

2005-07-29T19:08:00.000-07:00

Hellos. Oh no im like so troubled!! i have 2 worries.. one is i dont know what and the other is my clarinet !! getting harder and harder to blow !! ahhhh.. so hard to blow the high notes and do it fast.. oh nooo!! waaaaa.. my clarinet sounds so skueeky.. anyways gotta go back practising.. byebye and talk again like probably another timebyebye wor!!

2005-07-26T19:10:00.000-07:00

Heyaass.. The orange picture below is supposely a fire elemt girl.. why is it always the fire element who seem to be on the evyr wild side??? & the impression of earth element & water element people are those who are shy, timid and like yaa!! so friendly.. seem so unfair XD haha.. im kind of nonsensical talking about this.. Anyways, just came back from my friend's house to do the english skit thing. Now a days always do skit, the teachers love to see us act -__-'! haha. Shooo funny!! i Din know vanessa's mother so small.. i could even wear her working "jacket" or called da4 yi1* =DDD okk.. i look so nicee =PPP reminds me of band inuform T-T i want to get my inuform NOW!! haha. and also i want to peform !! X haha.. ok i shall end here.

*the 1/2/3/4 stands for the number of the sound. like di yi shen and so on =DD

2005-07-25T15:26:00.000-07:00

Ooop.. im so sorry for not posting now adays.. so damn busy with stupid school porjects!! hmpp!! so idioticc.. now adays so many projects, first there was english then we had art and then still got what..? errrmmm.. i think still got literature.. and umm.. we had science but its over now and umm.. oh well i guess i cant really list them all down.. too much to be said, and also ive been rather busy in writing this fanfic as well =PP hehe.. i thought it was fun to write such thingss.. so i decided to make one of my own and i did.. & its like currently posting somewhere on the internett.. XD elementsOf3 =DD I dont wish to let you all know the webbie cause i find my story stupid and lame and don't wish to embarrass or disgrace myself haha.. =PP soo i'll end off here.. B.Byee~!!

2005-07-19T17:56:00.000-07:00

Hellos.. i wonder if the clarinet blog's music is nice anot.. ahha.. i found it sweet and nice..? there seem to be so many familiar musics everywhere, i think its quite ok ba the song.. I think what was it called again? err..err..err.. oh yaar, umm i think is simple and clean?? haah i 4got lorr.. i think quite ok baa.. gd thing i never go look for those really dam band-ish music.. XD hahaha.. sighh.. now adays got sooo many projects to doo!! i cant take the stress of projects' date dues T-T some more i feel so lazy doing projectss.. is like always last minute de =PP sighh.. its so soothing~~ =XX well not excactly ^^" im listening tot he music of the clarinet blog as i typed this post.. haha =DD finally finished most of my lit project.. i think now only left with art and nth.. finally, most of the projects are almost all done!! ^^ hehe.. thx to my so "yong gong" de grp n_n haah.. =DD

2005-07-18T17:25:00.000-07:00

hellos.. the font colour im using now is my friend's favourites font colour.. haah =DD anywayss.. yayye!! ive just helped my class make the first step in making a class blog, since ive already gave them the "foundation" now all thye have to do is either they want to make our own class blog skin or anything at all.. up to them n_n i thot blog would be better and not as boring as friendsters =XX oops. din mean to offend or insult ^_^" But its like.. thats what I think.. yaa.. so yaa.. nth to say liao, enjoying the spirited away song futatabi =DD the ending theme of the show i think.. haha =DD i like summer day also veyr one leh! haha. =D enjoy your day!!

2005-07-16T12:45:00.000-07:00

Hellos once again.. hmm.. the weather is so nice n cool n_n im like sitting bside my window noww.. n the cool breeze just keeps blowing in. its so preasant =DD i want it to rain more more moree!! haha.. i just changed my bloggie skin.. you think its nice? =DD please comment under taggie horrxx.. oh yaa.. i wonder when i'll be going to buy court shoes for band with my bandmates n_n hmm.. court shoess.. what would i look like when i put them on and toegther with band uniform?.... *dreamss* hahaha!! formal i guess.. ^^ ^^ ^^ anyways, i cant wait tli i go round performing for miee sch worr.. ^^ ^^ ^^ i only got this much to say at this momentto.. =DD cya again next time~~

2005-07-15T15:37:00.000-07:00

Hellos.. oh nooo.. i think im in big trouble?? Or izz mie friends trying to scare mee..? I mean cos band got this Sana donation tickets or something.. They said today must pass up -__- and you know when they told me? When i was walking home.. thats like so late liao orh.. What they expect me to do..? run bakc to the school which is like.. whooh~ so far bhind? dots dots dots.. But i thot they ask us to pass up next week?? Oh dots.. now i have to go around the world looking for a sneior who i can ask.. XP sigghh..

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2005-07-14T16:49:00.000-07:00

Hellos.. eating potato chips right now n_n waaa.. suddenly feel so lazy & refuses to do work.. haha.. its time 4 a rest n_n =x.. yumbolicious!! i think im going to finish soon.. 2day we had pe.. oh my gdnessss.. it was horrible!! though we had this new teacher last week, shes not that bad but 2day's pe was horrible.. we had to use our elbows to support our bodies as we lie down facing the floor and lift ourselves up.. waaa.. your body must be straight on the ground.. cannot pop up at all.. waaaa.. Then the sun was like freakin claring 2day.. we had "netball" well we're like kind of learning how to play netball..? haha.. just the basics =D i end here hor..

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2005-07-13T19:00:00.000-07:00

Heeyaa.. hmm.. what a funny day 2day =DD im so totally bored lerr.. trying to update this thing everyday or so.. incase people get bored of my old posts.. Sighh.. its so hard to learn lerr.. & also, my maths teacher missed her lesson 2day.. so we din have maths =DD Sighhh.. I feel so worried&stressed dont know why so sigh-yy 2day T-T Waaa.. just came back from band, so tired.. YawnzZz.. -__-zZzZzZz I got panda eyes liao waaa.. haha.. 2nite got charmed n_n i cant wait til the next time my senior comes online =DDD

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2005-07-12T15:24:00.000-07:00

Heelloss.. This is getting really irritating!! This stupid mosquito in the house.. it always comes take my blood!!! I hate mosquito biites eevrywhere!! Thats so gross!!! ARRGGHH!! stupid mosquito!! hahaha.. im just abt to go oreder pizzaa.. =DD i lurve the lasagna.. or sth i dont know how to spell it well =P Its simply delicious n_n 45mins of delivery time? =P today we had this english test.. and my class was really ridiculously making the english teacher angry, they were like so rude 2wards the teacher.. I was thinking to myself.. "How can she tahan that?" & after that, she just exploded.. hahax.. serves those naughty naughty ppl right =PP I would have exploded when they started talking crap, but whoaa.. she like tahan awhile then she finally BOOM!! hahah.. sighh.. im soooooooooooo.......................................

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2005-07-11T05:33:00.000-07:00

Heeyys.. Hmm.. today came back sch, got so many hw to do waaa.. But at least ive already finished my maths n_n i cant wait for wed to come =P I think you all know y =DDD Currently doing my history.. Dont really understand how to do this.. Wonder if it is even in the textbook.. hmmm.. Im awfully hungryy..!! i hvnt had anything yet since 10.05am.. waaaa.. My stomach si growling =PPP Hmmmm.. mayb i shall go round the house & "hunt" for food.. Feel like eating meat =XX hehe.. Anyways, this post look so short =OO but maybe i shd go bakc to my history =PP byebyee

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2005-07-10T11:52:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. I dont know what's there to say.. So i think i'll just put something up 4 all of u to see n_n All these photos were taken by my cousin Js.. at Sentosa i think it was on the 1st or 2nd week of the school holidays.. =DD the merlion, & the musical fountain thingy & e scenery found outside the delifrance.. hehe =DD I think its a little messy =P

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2005-07-09T13:04:00.000-07:00

Hiiieee.. I just came from band.. well not just but an hr ago =P waahh.. just realised how hard the fingerings are.. From A go to high B is like so far T-T then so hard to looking at the notes then finger an count the beat inside your head AND tongue / slur and blow.. oh myy.. well im still glad i choose this instrument =P Oh yaa.. i drew this cute tigger with that small kangeroo i forgot the nameof it.. Well, anyways i plan to gib that to Justina n_n she said she'll come to me class and get it fomr me on Monday =O!! haah.. Hope she likes it.. & here's a "preview" of the pic i drew.. haha =P i think abit not clear right? Yeeps.. i borrowed mie clarinetto home =P =D =D =D mie buddy nv teach me 2day.. It was another gerl.. waa.. haha.. Im still as hopeless.. still cant seem to talk to mie scary senior =P dun eevn dare open me mouth.. i actually wanted to ask her myself whether anybody sharing clarinetto.. then i c her coming den i just turn around.. ahaha.. so scariness c-ing her in person still not going off.. haha =P

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2005-07-08T15:37:00.000-07:00

Heeyss.. Im going to eat pizaa really really soon n_n =o i feel so motivated to type proper english from now.. haha, im afraid i use shortforms too much until people dont even understand what im actually trying to say. Perhaps this way my posts can be longer =P well anyways, I cant think of anything to say.. I came back from sch yaa.. today was an early release day.. Im glad that today we were released early.. But we had art, n i think that my life is already too flooded with projects & there comes another for art -_- im getting so irritated at this.. Maybe i'll stop here, very hungry ler.. bbye i go eat =P [MieTiggerSoftToy]

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2005-07-07T17:50:00.000-07:00

Hiee again.. Waaa.. feel so empty lehx.. Im all feeling lonely n stuff.. 2day's maths passed by rather fast.. we were drawings graphs n b4 we knew it it was alrdy lyk 15mins til e nxt lesson.. Tmr is gonna b 1 of e heavy bag days.. Sighh, got art eeeww!! =X although i lyk drawing, but i simply dislyk my art art tcher.. -_- I finally finished e 1000pieces jigsaw puzzle.. 1 was my horoscope & 1 was abt wolves.. e wolves 1 was raelly hard took me lyk 1yr++ 2 do tt, cos dey took pics of many many tings n compile em 2gether 2 cr8 tis wolf looking lyk pic, wif other small pics of wolves as well.. I thot i was quite fast cos i managed 2 finish lky tis really really dam hard jigsaw wifin a yr or so =P oh yeah.. e horoscope 1 din really take me yrs.. But juz lyk 1 month or so bahh.. I m sooooo bored, not many ppl updated their posts now adays.. cept 4 miee, i update lyk eevryday.. mayb when i grow tired of tis i probably take me lyk weeks or months 4 e nxt post =P sighh.. guess i'll stop here [Cant wait 4 sat 2 come] =D Look e pic above.. I drew tt =P supposed 2 b half demon & girl Water element.. I noe im boring =P couldnt manage 2 take e whole pic dwn wif e camera so yeah juz took e top =P

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2005-07-06T18:20:00.000-07:00

Heyy.. Juz returned home from band.. I feel super hungryy!! I din hav my lunch tis aftnoon at 2pm cos i thot i wun hav time 2 do so =P band was rather slow in progress cos mr.yeo teach very "slow" i tink hes trying his best 2 make us all understand.. =D Hes lyk asking us 2 sing e rhythm, den say rhythm den finger , den listen 2 him play piano n finger, den listen him play piano n sing n finger.. tts lyk suck a long process.. not lyk mr.tan (e main band instructor) he ask us 2 say rhythm, den finger n sing den listen him play once thru den can start liao.. tts lyk much mor faster. Not criticising him or anyting.. i mean lyk juz a thot, n yeah.. currently waiting 4 my aunt 2 deliever e dinner =P i beta go now.. n_n

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2005-07-05T15:42:00.000-07:00

Hiiee.. Alicia so yong gong started studying so much lerx.. sighh.. heard my senior/buddy stepping in nxt yr July wor.. feel so sad =P nxt yr gonna hav another xtremely sad period of time =P I had lyk a rather "long" conversation wif 1 of mie senior.. u wanna noe y i so scared? =P cos last time during band.. u seem 2 oways look at us, den u look so scary.. den suddenly ask usk us 2 sit up straight, its juz very scary.. Den everytime c-ing u walk around i feel soo... soo.. tis feeling tt makes me feel lyk running off sumwhere where u wun c me =P hehe.. i noe tts kind of weird? But i cant help it =P hehe.. N oso, u look very discipline, n juz simply makes me tink tt ure e fierce type of person.. Im srry did i offend u? Oh yaa.. n rmb e 1st time i tried clairnets cos mr.sim said nth left so yeah we went ta try it out? Umm yeah.. tt time we try hor, u seem so irritated wif us.. so from tt it adds on 2 e scariness =P N i keep tinking tt u feel very irritated wif me when i c u.. Umm.. i guess tts all i gotta say 4 now..

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2005-07-04T11:20:00.000-07:00

Hiiiee.. yayye.. i got my seniors email =P hehe.. But alicia still better den meee n_n now at my cousin house watching him do hw.. his mama "assign" me e "duty" 2 watch him do finish XD.. =P Yayye.. hope e Cla.Blog. got very often updates.. =D Its so sweeett.. Im trying my best as 2 put aside all those happenings.. n yeahh.. Sighh.. I heard tt xiuting coming dwn on sat n_n i feel weird.. I feel tt im so afraid of her but yet so excited n cant wait 4 her 2 come visit us on sat =P Anywayz.. i cant tink of anyting else 2 type & i feel lyk making my post rather long so.. i tink i'll add sum pics n_n PicTakenAtSentosa

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2005-07-03T12:49:00.000-07:00

Waaa.. so many sad tings happened T-T class sitting arrangement+Seniors stepped dwn.. Sighh now i hav an even gr8er emptyness in my heart.. No mor familiar faces coming ta wave 2 mee.. I feel so sad.. Im gonna miss e sec4s dey seem so nice.. dey were lyk e only 1s i knew n seen walking round all e time.. ok not really ALL e time.. but still.. u get wad i mean.. I would definately NOT wan my buddy/senior or not my sad-o-metre would xplode.. hehe.. Hope u all lyked e flowers n_n its all thx 2 alicia 4 gibing me e idea of gibing flowers.. or not i would b so lost as 2 tink of sth 2 gib =) Would yall promise 2 update e Cla.Blog. often.. e only way of communicating wif yall is thru e blog.. I dun hav any of ur contacts, canot ask how r u or anyting.. It'll probably take sum time 4 my "wounds" 2 heal.. But i promise i would continue working hard wif miee clarinet n_n & oso tryta work my way up e stairs of being able 2 play during SYF.. Wun let all of u dwn n_n Rmb 2 update e Cla.Blog as often as possible =) So rmb 2 come n watch ur juniors perform nxt time ya? =D I'll miss all of uu!!

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2005-07-02T11:36:00.000-07:00

Umm.. Hellos.. Im abt 2 go 2 borders 2 watch e bandiee perform.. hehex.. tink mie fren alrdy bought sum flowers 2 gib em =P Now sch reopen.. I feel tis gr8 emptyness in my heart.. New sitting arangement is so stupid&horrible.. Juz wish tis yr would pass by fast n everyting would come 2 an end.. Hope my whole life of studying comes 2 an end as well, den i wun need 2 b so worried over tings n oso so stressed up T-T Sighh.. now adays come home only got hw 2 do, & dere is nth im looking 4ward 2 cept 4 holidays.. SobSob, ppl sitting bside me r lyk all those study study freaks.. & i hate e 1 sitting bhind shes such a damit b*t*h!! >:( Hate her 2 e core.. shes lyk ewww so act cute LAR!! e tchers xplaining sth.. she'll b e xtra 1 hu ask dam lotsa tings lor.. stupid idiot -_-'! shes lyk tinks shes e BEST or sth -_- every single time she toks makes me wanna PUKE cos shes lyk juz bhind me her voice is sooo irritating 2 my ears!!

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2005-07-01T18:14:00.000-07:00

Heyy!! Hi again.. tmr e ij band gonna perform at borders.. I wanna gib sth 2 those sec4 stepping dwn seniors T-T Sobsob.. Gonna miss em.. Waaaa.. i tink my fren ~alicia~ Gonna help me buy flowers or sth 2 gib em as a farewell gift.. as 4 those hu r still sec3s.. =P perhaps nxt time when dey step dwn ba.. hehee.. Im still puzzled as 2 how many clarinet sec4 seniors r dere?? I duno how many flowers 2 ask mie fren 2 buy lehxx.. can sumbody tell me?? Oh my gdness.. its lyk tmr >.< [[RainbowOverTheSky]] PictureTakenAtSentosa

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2005-06-30T16:11:00.000-07:00

Hiiee.. I juz help update my clarinet blog.. =P i took sum pieces of ideas fomr here & dere.. hehex!! Anywayz.. i juz simply lurve eating e rice dumpling my nanny makes.. its so delicious!! So yummyy!! Tmr is youth day, tinking of wad 2 wear.. tink til brain can xplode.. tmr is youth day still dun allow us 2 wear so many tings.. skirt oso canot above knee, den sleeveless oso rules so many!! Sighh.. cant enjoy much of youth day =P hehex~ Errmm.. Ya,Im lyk so bored! Aft tis youth day celebration, deres surely gonna b tough studyings ahead.. we went 4 dental checkup tis morning, e dentist ask me whether i wanna put braces.. I c every1 lyk put braces on both upper n lower teeth, i tink i only need upper.. do dey hav tt kinda package? =P Mayb i shd put.. Hmmm.. *tinks tinks*

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2005-06-29T19:03:00.000-07:00

Once again, welcome 2 my bloggie posts n_n.. ever since my tcher changed our positions.. now infront of me e ger *realises* tt i could draw.. Den every now n den she ask me ta darw sth 4 her =P actually i quite enjoyed tt.. cos its lyk no body gimmi any ideas 2 draw so yeah need sum "inspiration" heheh.. But i feel so bad 4 e other gerl, she oso can draw very well but den i juz feel tis sense of sympathy 4 her.. i duno y perhaps cos tcher changed our seats, den she is currectly sitting bside e person hu used 2 sit infront of me =P she was REALLY fun 2 sit bhind of.. shes so full of crap but yet funny!! haha!! & e person hu sit infront of me last time seldom toks 2 e ger gd at drawing.. so poorting.. sighh now our side of e classrm from quiet turn 2 noisy.. waaa so irritating..

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2005-06-28T16:31:00.000-07:00

I Put tis poem here cos i thot is was rather interesting.. Hope u lyk it n_n

Have you ever felt alone in life,Felt no one cared for you?Or been out with a group of friends,And felt alone then too?Have you ever had a broken heart,You felt couldn't be repaired?Or tried to touch somebody with your words,But knew nobody cared?Have you ever needed good advice,But were too afraid to call?Or felt separated from the world,Surrounded by a brick wall?Have you ever been asked about your future,And said you couldn't care less?Or tried to pick up the pieces but,They make just one giant mess?Have you ever felt so confused,That you couldn't even cry?Have you ever felt so damn depressed;Have you ever wished to die?

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2005-06-28T00:51:00.000-07:00

Hiiee.. Hmm.. my poor tcher, such bad luck wahh.. 4 times in a row sumor lor.. look into her eyes lyk wanna cry lyktt =P anywayz.. Position changed liao.. Now got new ppl sitting infront n bhind me, but i din change.. tts so.. feel lyk a paralyzed.. im lyk sth left over lyk sum kinda unmovable leg or arm or sth.. -_- Lolxx!! Sighh.. Feel so tired now adays.. wake up so early T-T den not enuff slp.. -_-zZz,,, I din go anywhere 4 holidays.. tt was so sad.. heard tt tis yr end all band ppl going 2 genting 1st world hotel or sth 4 competition.. we gonna go dere n watch.. I duno wad its lyk, nv really quite watch my band perform wif their uniforms in such a lyk serious event.. Lolx.. duno howta say it out but im happy i'll b going n_n Hope i make it main band den SYF nxt time =P its lky so nice.. den sch days can at least get 2 days 2 practise.. n not study =P hehe..

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2005-06-27T17:39:00.000-07:00

Hiiee.. again.. Sighh.. sch reopen liao.. i c my tcher den i so depressed T-T I wonder hav my drawing improved =P i dun tink so.. its still as ugly as ever.. no talents at all T-T i cant do anyting.. Drawing sux.. singing lyk ewww?? den gymnastic not tt pro wif tt.. lyk backflips n stuff, den designing? No ideas of wad 2 draw T-T its all gotta do wif cr8tivity.. i dun tink i hav a VERY strong sense of tt.. sob sob!! Mayb tis si e reason i joined band =P I thot it would make me seem mor skilled =P n oso special.. cos my family not all of us lyk got xperience wif instruments.. but js got =P so i thot it would b so special 2 b able 2 play an instrument n_n.. n til now i still feel e same.. I end off here 2day n_n

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2005-06-26T12:39:00.000-07:00

Hiiee again.. anywayz.. i feel so depressed T-T i dun wanan go sch.. tmr sch reopen lerx.. feel lyk banging my head on e wall n tink nth happened.. :'( i so completely dislyk sch liaox.. thx 2 SUM ppl in my stupid class~ >:( oh ya sheryl can tell me ur blog addie.. waaa.. tt day me n alicia went ta mediacorp 2 collect e movie tix.. which was located up on a stupid hill n took us 4eva 2 get there.. n halfway dere i kana stung by STH.. dun even noe wad TT ting is.. so stupid.. den abit weird e feeling.. den thot i was gonna die, but i din haha din even go c a doctor =P

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2005-06-25T04:13:00.000-07:00

Another "day" of tonnes 2 say =P.. juz wanted 2 say tt had fun in my band parteh day =) We had lotsa fun.. I wanna thank my sweet+nice buddy/senior >> Teresa ^^ hehex.. Thx again 4 e yummilicious wittle treat =D Shes so nice.. e party was so funny.. e clarinet section seniors gave out wineglasses 2 e sec1/2 band recruits.. u shd b able 2 understand tt.. It was really nice n prettie =P dey even rote a tini little msg in it.. was so FUN!! feel lyk staying dere 4 a very long time.. but happy moments dun last.. i suppose~ tis post is specially dedicated 2 all band members =P Hope ya enjoy ya "stay" in band ^^ U do noe u havta 4 e nxt 3 / 4yrs.. hehexx~ Hope i'll b c-ing mor my buddy/senior soon during our Sat pracs ^^

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2005-06-25T01:27:00.000-07:00

Yayyee~!! Finally.. its finally done.. all my hw as well =P aft all e hardwork.. sighh sch reopening again
T-T feel as if e sky gonna collapse.. Sobss.. I dislyk sch .. :'( all e ppl dere so mean.. e teachers r lyk so freakinly unfair n my classmates r sumtimes rude.. sobss.. T-T how i wish we dun havta study n such.. its lyk if only we were born wif all e knowledge alrdy.. or we wun b sitting in e classrms wasting our lives.. Sobss.. T-T Well.. on e other hand.. when our studies finally finish.. we would tink tt.. "Wow.. its actually been so fast.." It doesnt seem 2 b fast here.. but surely when eevryting is over *Lyk e psle tt time =P* u would b glad u went thru all those trouble n finally got ur degrees or wadeva.. sighhx.. hope everyting juz goes past fast >.<>

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